yeah, today wasn't a great great day. first of all, julia made me break the vow..since she "didn't understand what i was talking about." whatever, and then everyone just kept on urging me to talk [the doctor, obviously] so i'm making up my hours on sunday.

it's so very embarrassing when your father is in the same room as you when the doctor is asking you very uh private questions. me and my sister got, how you say, fake high. because those shots made me go dizzy and headachy-whatever. so we went to the bathroom for urine samples arg. you dont need to know this, but i'll get you traumatized, it's my specialty. erm. the bathroom was all disgusting and me and my sister started complaining and whining....and crying, and laughing as well. yes, pissed all over the fucking toilet seat and uh...warm. yeah. you know what? i will shut up. then we were all delusional...when we got out of the bathroom there was a little girl and her mum. i felt so much smaller and immature than that girl.

anyways...tomorrow's gap. tomorrow's also my mother's birthday.

i have no college fund, that's some great shit.